I’m joining in this week’s Five Minute Friday, and you can too! Just write for 5 minutes with no editing on the word of the week. This week’s word is “again.”
Here goes…
I look down into the bag of Chex Mix, my fingers covered in fine orange powder, and I sigh in frustration. Surely I hadn’t eaten that much. Surely the bag was emptier than I remembered it being before I started mindlessly eating. Surely I had only had one handful. Or two. Or three.
How do I keep finding myself in this same place? Over and over, again and again. Maybe it’s a bad day that triggers it, or maybe I’m lonely or sad or just bored. Whatever the reason, more often than not I turn to food for comfort instead of turning to Jesus.
I think about how I am so heartbroken when Charlotte turns her head away from me when she is grumpy or upset, how I long for her to reach out to me in her frustration or sadness. Doesn’t she know how much I love her, how much I want to sweep her up into my arms and hold her tightly, her sweet head nestled into the crook of my neck?
I think of the small way in which I love her compared to the vastness of the love of God, and I wonder how much God’s heart breaks when I choose something as ridiculous as Chex Mix to comfort me when I have the Healer of the Universe waiting, His arms open wide, ready to embrace me?
Again and again I fail, and again and again He forgives, removing my sin as far as the east is from the west.
Erin Mount 
Amen, praise God.
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Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful!
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thankful for the truth you've expressed.
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beautiful post once again Erin!
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I find that I too will often reach for food for comfort. I have been trying to not eat anything when I am stressed, anxious etc etc etc. and to just allow myself to feel and experience and work through all of those emotions. (wow, there are a lot of them). I'm not sure what I am supposed to learn from them? Maybe just to let them exist and be, without trying to mask them? I don't know. Good luck, I loved your post. It was very real!
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Beautiful! What a treasured and honest post! ❤
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