Tomorrow marks the end of my maternity leave. I admit that I have mixed feelings. On the one hand, I am going to miss seeing my little girl all day, every day. On the other hand, I am looking forward to getting to interact with adults and get back to my job, which I happen to like (most of the time, haha).
I think the most difficult thing about going back to work is knowing that someone else will be taking care of her, not me. The thought of her being in daycare every day makes me really sad, and I know I will have a hard time the first few weeks. However, I know that she will be in good hands. I also know that daycare kids don’t end up scarred for life or anything like that. After all, I was in daycare, and I’m only slightly neurotic, so it can’t be too bad, right? 😉
Another challenge about going back to work will be finding time to exercise. Time is at a premium now, but it will be much more so when I am back at work and the only time I will have with Stephen and Charlotte will be in the early morning before I leave and in the evening after we are all at home. I feel selfish for wanting to spend any of that precious time just exercising, but I know it’s important to take care of myself so I can be there for Stephen and for Charlotte. It will be tough, though. I am going to just keep trying to get in at least 3 workouts of at least 30 minutes at a time, and I will start Couch to 5k next week, which will give me a specific goal to work towards.
Overall, going back to work is a necessity right now, and while I’m not completely thrilled about it, I am determined to make the best of the situation and take it one day at a time. Ultimately, that’s really all any of us are guaranteed.